Bad things don't happen to people like me. People like me don't die defenseless

the new position at work is awesome. i actually do something now. i bake bread and decorate cakes. yes i do. 30 hours a week of it. I am going to hate white bread for the rest of my life after a month or two. but as long as im not standing at a checkout l will be very happy. I sold like 20 boxes of cinimon rolls. go me. anywho....... school is kicking my ass 16 credits.. yeesh. speech and history and english are easy. although english is lot of work. biology and math are freaking hard. biology being even harder than math.. amazed i am at that. so since i have sundays off now. im going to devote them to finishing up and studying or hw i havnt finished before and chores and shat.. but SUNDAYS ARE PROJECT DAYS. so maybe i can be a tad more productive with a set time to do things... maybe?

soo...

i made austin a really awesome birthday card... stenciled his face smiling and put tin foil where the teeth are... "FLASH YO GRILL!!".. its your birthday.

i thought it was clever.

only i still havnt gave it to him cause out birthday plans went oh hiatus... cause his stomach problemss.. gastrointestinallblahblahblah..at least thats what i think it is.

this led me to introduce austin to herbal remedies since none of that shit he does works.. fennel tea? anyone?

school starts the 28th.. im really excited because i really want to focus and get shit done. im running behind and really need to do good. so i am super motivated.

tomorrow is my parents 25th wedding anniversary.. its really cute. i hope i can have a relationship that will last that long one day.

took my cousin back up to the airport. i havnt seen her in years really.. its funny cause she has really strict parents and its nice to see her finally rebel.

this is a really long blog.

i took my grandmas ice cream maker FTW!

night.

dsl ownes.

not as much as cable..

ok its like this

dialup<dsl<cable

i need a new book to read

any suggestions?

soooo... i forgot to take the online final for my computer class.. GODDAMMIT!!!
so i got dropped down to a D. Lame. although i thought i didint have to take it till next sunday the 14th.. guess i was wrong. and i failed math..
but thats usual. but i got b's in phychology and english. so i passed 3 classes failed one. yay. ugh fuck. well i get to take a shit load next semester. gahfucking gah! oh well.

sometimes its strange. im starting to live the life i have always dreamt of.



things like spending lazy afternoons drinking iced tea, cuting my boyfriends hair on the back porch, mix tapes with the sappiest love songs i've ever heard in my life, and watching goofy movies, with his momma teaching me to knit. haha awwwww i love this so much. im finally happy. im happy.

"Love of mine some day you will die
But I'll be close behind
I'll follow you into the dark

No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule
I got my knuckles brusied by a lady in black
And I held my toungue as she told me
"Son fear is the heart of love"
So I never went back

If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

You and me have seen everything to see
From Bangkok to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes are all worn down
The time for sleep is now
It's nothing to cry about
Cause we'll hold each other soon
The blackest of rooms

If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
Then I'll follow you into the dark"

well tomorrow is "me and austin's day".

we're gonna wash his car.. cause i keep drawing on it. and i dont think he appreciates it very much... i think the shooting stars with "ROCKETT!!!" did it.

and then im giving him a hair cut

and then we're gonna watch "Waiting" because i have not seen it yet.

maybe a trip to old navy because i got a gift card there.

and then you know the normal things we do.

mmm im falling hard for this boy. i've only been with him for like a month and a half.. but we've liked each other since november so yea. i've never has anyone want to tell me they loved me and me saying.. its too soon. weird!!?!?

even though. i might. i dunno. this is crazy.

is it too much to ask for things to work out this time?

i <3 that boy.

but he's sad i want to make him happy and i just dont know how. just keep being good to him. i dunno. wheres my happy boy? i may bust out the "e" word.


i would kill for Chopolte or however the fuck that burrito place is spelled right now. holy shit. sounds so good.

this was random.

i want my tax return

teeheeheee

i guess you could say i am a happy girl :)

i love paper art so much.. like cardmaking. yea one day i will be a skilled craftologist. or something like that. i'm sure

i need photoshop. i lost it. somewhere. ahhhhhhhhhhh. im dying

i kinda fixed my camera. it works now.. but the fixtures are still falling off :(

nonetheless. happy happy happy

i got something i wanted..... now what?

if i lived in az i would be at the taste of chaos right fucking now.

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this shirt owns you.

and really its about time. it has faced some serious abuse.

digital cameras have gotton cheap!!

geezz...

well.. i am broke.. my budget is about $150 bucks.. and i dont want a piece of crap either..

i found a pretty decent fugifilm one on target.com


any inexpensive digital camera recommendations would be very helpful..

thx :)

thats is. im going on a diet. no more fast food..

haha relax. not really a diet.

but i read some article on fast food and made me want to purge..

no more jack in the box strawberry milkshakes... *cries*

none the less it is for the best. (that rhymed)

jamie wants a tan and muscle tone..
is that too much to ask?

long hair too.

long hair indeed.


texas girls in this region are not that pretty.

so i want to ownn!!!!

like highschool all over again. terrific. pathetic. it will be the winner of the canns film festival.

my life. as a movie.

today i had a day off.. and i wanted to get all my homework done

unfortunatly that didnt happen and i ended up in the bowling alley wiht my family. oh well i cant get anything done with them around anyways..

i need a laptop BAD

i have to woek tomarrrow at one

someone said they were firing people. oh hurray.

i want to go to the park with friends again. that was always so fun.

kiss me and kill me please!

im so obvious and yet no bites.

today i had school and didnt have to work

so that was a -/+ so neutral.

school is gonna whip me. and whip it good.

i cant think of anything to draw... or stencil.. at least nothing original.

i want some ice cream.

my dogs are barking.

my grandma is kind of annoying.

we are moving again.. only within the neighborhood i think.

robert smith owns me tonight.

i like a boy who i cant have.

i feel dumb for it too..

ehh i wont do anything just hold it in like i do everything else.

ive been "the other woman" twice in one day with 2 different boys. and i didnt even do anything..
now i have a slutty ego today. hhaha.

because there pecker is on their head!!

lol. my brother is awesome.


my blood pressure is 64 over 8.

how the hell am i alive?!?!!?

happy hannukah and merry christmas

so i finished a corset for a dress and its too big. pfff.

i FINALLY saw cronicles of Narnia.

ive been wanting to see it since last spring.

i was not dissapointed. i WANT to BE the WHITE WITCH. shes too cool.(and has the coolest costumes)

yea im such a nerd but its ok. cause my late aunt used to read those books to me all the time so there.

umm... i want to make that dress with the black broken wing. oh sweet jesus.

i think i want to be a costume designer.